Animals: Cute, But Deadly....

Alright. So before you start thinking I'm crazy, I just want you to know one thing. I love animals, I think they're great! Most of them anyways.........some are completely unacceptable, and I will NOT deal with them.

I have no problem looking at animals from a far, noticing their brilliant colors, their way of life, and how they interact with everything. It's once I get close to them--that reallllllly starts to freak me out! It's something about their beady eyes...or their sharp claws, or their obsession to sniff, flap their wings, or even stare you down.

My friend Nicole has these two birds, Chloe and Elle. They're so pretty! However, when she brings them into the room, my muscles tense up, and I'm terrified that they'll come near me!! I don't know what I'm afraid of, because I know that they're smaller than I am, and that they can't hurt me--but something about them being on my shoulders makes me cringe. They usually just sit on the bed and STARE me down. I think that's the creepiest part... Knowing that they're staring at you; thinking of attacking you--but not saying anything. They're silent--but sooo deadly...they're still pretty though!

Whenever I tell people that animals scare me, they automatically think that I hate them! SO not true. I am merely fearful for my life....

Some animals don't scare me at all though. My friend Hannah has a dog named Tinkerbell--and she's great. She's so fluffy, and I just love holding her! Every other dog though--heck NO I won't hold you! I just can't! Like literally--I can't help myself from freaking out. So I don't know why Hannah's dog is an exception.So....maybe there are more animals out there that I wouldn't mind holding, but for now, I'm still trying to steer clear of most of them...

Oh my gosh. One time, I went to my neighbors house to hang out--and this was like 3 ish years ago. She decides to show me her gerbils...or were they hamsters? What's the difference anyways?? I sure don't know...But it was like she was keeping "cute" rats in her house! Willingly, too!! I mean who does that?! I wanted to call the exterminator sooooo badly. She's like.."Aren't they cute?".........I had to force myself to say "yes", and then I excused myself from the room.

I seriously felt that I was going to die.

Over the years I've tried....I've ridden horses, put on deer goggles ( to understand more about them ), once I held a rabbit...until it peed on me ( which was mortifying..), and I even fed carrots to Llamas..(until they tried to bite me..), I even walk by the Pet Store occasionally! It's hard work trying to befriend these animals. I encourage all of you to do it though... :)

Want to know a secret?? When I was in second grade, I really wanted to be a veterinarian...until I learned that I actually had to come in contact with animals, and put them to sleep---which was just too heartbreaking. I soon changes my aspirations to be more realistic--an Interior Designer! but that's a different story... I just remember that in my 2nd grade class, there was a huge poster of people in different careers. The veterinarians always looked the happiest--so I decided I wanted to be like that one day. I'll still be happy with what I do in my future, I just won't be a vet.

Maybe I'll get used to animals one day?? Or....maybe I won't. I think one of the other reasons I've always been so afraid of animals is because I never had pets in my house as I was growing up. Actually--I take some of this back. My sister Erika used to be just like me, in the way that she was afraid of animals, but she could still tolerate them somewhat. However! She converted to the other side....her and her fiancee, Tyler, just bought a dog named Percy. At first I found this silly because Erika hated animals!!! Now she loves sleeping with her dog and she's completely changed her perspective on animals. Maybe the same will happen to me one day??

Animals are great----just not up close. They're much too dangerous and scary! They areee cute though. I'll give them that. :) Well....except for "cute" rats, or mice, or snakes, or big scary dogs, or mean cats, or angry geese that chase you down the road, or rabbits that pee on you, or llamas that threaten to bite you. Other that THAT---I'll admire them from a far. :)

Little Miss Indecisive....

decisions, decisions, decisions.

WHY are there so many of them???

I know that there are so many times that you really need to think about what you're getting yourself into, and you have to carefully analyze consequences..pros and cons, i don't even KNOW what else to say. just alllll that jazz.

I'd say that a good time to be really indecisive,...would be when you're picking out colleges, and which boys to crush on...like is it a blonde today? or is it the typical brunette, orrr which jobs to apply for, and so onn.

however...when you're at BP and you MEANT to run in for a split second and grab a snack, but actually that split second turns into 2 minutes...and soon enough you're pacing around the store for 15 minutes trying to decide between white cheddar popcorn and a twix bar, OR...a milky way and vitamin water....or you know, you could always get allllll of them! But of course you knly have $5......but did you wnat to spend it all in the first place!! you knly planned on spending $2 max! But now that you've spent 15..maybe 20 minutes in the store--you're exhausted! Maybe you really do want to go all out and get that vitamin water, as well as the popcorn and twix. but then......you'll have to go running when you get home. WHY does all this food turn into calories?!

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions!!! I mean really---in the eternal perspective, you're not going to remember what snack you bought, but at this point in time, you--alright I should say "I". This actually happened to me. I know--it's hard to believe that I'd be blogging about a personal experience--but I kid you not. After my AP Psych test THIS year, this exact dilemma happened to me. I know--MOST traumatic thing ever.

If you're interested though, I only ended up getting the white cheddar popcorn and Twix bar. But this was after the asian guy at the counter was making funny faces at me the whole time. I walked near the cashier like 5 different times, but then quickly turned away...exchanging my snack for something...healthier? Yeah, I'll just say that.

But I mean..SERIOUSLY?!?!

Why do I obsess over things like thiss?? I think this should be a disease. I have such a tortured brain sometimes--I don't even understand how I get up in the mornings! I usually toss and turn and debate with myself to wake up later then when I actually did. Waking up at 9:24 is certainly not acceptable! I have to wait until 9:30. but then i sleep in too late...and wake up at 9:32......but then I just sleep in until 10 because I'm just so dang lazy to get up anyways.

Okay I guess that's not me being indecisive...that's just me being seriously disturbed...and OCD.

I think I need to realllllllly start just DOING things--rather than analyzing everything so fully! I think that's why I'm such an adventure-starved gal. I never want to go out and do stuff totally crazy or rebellious--because I know the consequences so well. Maybe that's just a really good thing...but maybe its just being a wuss..a big ol' wussie!!

ugh. THAT's sure attractive. I can't even order a different sub at Subway--I'm so afraid I won't like it. I mean.....it's a dang sandwich. It's not going to kill me. Unfortunately I take everything too seriously, and I don't live on the edge enough.

NOT FOR LONG!! I hereby vow to try and do new things. And maybe even spend less time at BP when I'm picking out a snack. I mean I love them all--so if I get something I like, it won't be bad, right? I guess I always just want the BEST. but maybe that's too much to expect from a candy bar. That can't grant me happiness after all....and its silly to think that my life will change over tiny little things, like food, and what movie to watch, and what clothes to wear. I'm not going to die because of it....hopefully. :)

I like to think that I grant my own happiness--and I do.

:)

Why, Hello There!! :)

Okay...so this is kind of cool! A blog! Okay so I know that usually old ladies have blogs so that they feel like they're super cool--but anyone can have one, right? I actually wasn't planning on making one because I feel kind of weird typing all my thoughts out there--for everyone to see! I'm usually not one to broadcast my thoughts and feelings..but then my friend Nicole encouraged me to get one--so I thought..what the hay?!

Everyone has thoughts..right?? So what's wrong with voicing my opinion?? yeaaaa, I thought so. :)

So that's what this blog will be I guess. And I'm definitely not going to force people to read this--or expect some big.."I loved your blog!!" although praise is always welcome. :) haha but really...I think it could be good for me to say what I want, and allow for some creative thought again. I haven't written in SO long.

Oh gosh---don't be mislead. In nooooo way am I a great writer, or even an interesting writer. So if you see grammar mistakes and feel like throwing up, then this blog isn't for you. you HAVE been warned. As I'm writing these posts, which may be every random day I pick, then it'll be quick and fun. Although with my OCD I'll try and go back to fix little mistakes. unfortunately, I may miss a comma or so...so I just hope that the sky doesn't start falling over in your neck of the woods.

ummm...i think i covered everything so far. so that's basically it. here's my blog! and be prepared for utter randomness and some slight boredom. :)

wow that was a lame introduction. let me retry... HI!! my name is julia!!! this is my AWESOME blog. so GET READINGGGGG. It'll be fanTABULOUS. idk why i bolded tabulous...because that definitely isn't a word. OH yea...one more thing. I'm a spaz....SURPRISEE!!! :)

okay that's all. haha hopefully these get more interesting. :)